Before I used to despise people that had one of those 'no name lists' because my list never consisted so many people, or so many hidden things I needed to say but couldn't...but it seems like those days have passed and I can finally create one...because for once there are so many things I should/want/can't/have to say to so many people I love/like/hate/dislike...etc....so here we go.
-- Where do I start with you...you have changed so much but through out it all you have never forgetten who you once were..sometimes you switch back and forth on things and I know you know you are doing it. I wish I could tell you how things will be, if what you want it what you get...but I know you will make it...but sometimes I just miss the old you, a lot.
-- You have been the greatest friend I have ever had, and I wish I was the same back to you but sometimes I feel like I hide so much from you, even though you may think I share a lot. I try to make it look like I am protective and what not but in all honesty I have hid so many things from you especially in the past few months, I literlly lied to you and I don't know if you would ever forgive me but I want you to know I am sorry in advanced.
-- You are something else, seriously I thought nothing of you at first..you were just someone else, you sort of disgusted me and annoyed me, but once I found out who you were and how you were I completely changed my preciption of you. I love you a lot and I am sorry about lieing...and I am even more sorry about that one night, I am going to miss you and even though you declared it to be over, I know I have to completely ignore you...which I don't want to do at all...but I have a feeling you already started.
-- I know deep down inside you sort of don't care, and I feel that way a lot but I just hope you don't get yourself into any crap because I swear my heart won't be able to take it.
-- I miss you, what happened? You kept to herself with a million and one secrets and at first I hated that about you...but now I love it and miss it. Sometimes when I am alone I think about doing what you do. Hah, I know I won't lose touch with you.
-- I don't know why I thought you were special in the first place, I don't regret you but you did help me realize how to deal with people like you...deep down inside I wish I never let me self get caught up with you because now you have affected every realtionship (from a crush to a simple friend) for me...but it was the better..
haha maybe not a lot, but it's not like any of them will see this.
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